How did I get here?

I think the reason I am here right now doing what I'm doing is because God has ordained it and it's in line with his purpose. I wholeheartedly believe that my God is sovereign and is never surprised by anything. He is not reactive. I don't believe that anything, god or whatever dared him to create this world with only his voice.

In Dallas a speaker was describing how God always glorifies himself. Speaking of the cross he said that if you were there that day you would have deemed that scene as the worst time in history. But as we look on it now it is the salvation in which we derive our love, hope and joy. The pinnacle time in history. The watershed moment for man.

I was for forced to look at my life. What event had I seen as horrible? The thing that came to my mind was the death of my dad. Dad and I were close and I don't remember a day without him until I went to college. Everybody liked him. On Friday October 2nd, 1987 at my brother's football game, he had his first and last heart attack. When the sun came up the next day I tried to will it back down because I didn't want to face a world without my dad in it.

Twenty years later here I am, a completely different man. One who wholeheartedly loves and trusts in Jesus. I was saved then but had no idea what God really had in store for me. You see I love my life. A great marriage, two really great and unique kids, two amazing grand kids and a life filled with friends who genuinely love me. Do I know what my kids and grand kids missed out on by not knowing my dad, sure. Even now I think to myself if dad could have seen that we would have had one of those big belly laughs that leaves you needing a nap.

The truth is if dad were still alive I would not be here now. God's story is playing out. So as I look back twenty years I see that time a little differently. God is holy, pure and perfect and He has a plan for my life. I may still mourn the death of my father but now I also rejoice.